Dont worry about it, its ok to feel like that. Stop taking the meds, and move on without them, when did humans become so dependant on things like meds... You dont need them. The only thing you need is a clear, logical mind that at the minute you dont have. Picture your self in a few years when things in your life really start to take matter, wife, kids etc, picture the callum from 2-4 years ago looking at what u r doing now. They would both feel your being crazy. The callum everyone knows is a smart guy and at the minute your not being that person. I know she made you feel better but it was doomed from the start, as soon as she was going to uni it was never going to work, and relationships do come and go, you certainly dont need meds to help, you just need time, a straight forward thinking mind and friends. If you like, I can take all the pills tomoz from u. Its time to man up and take it on the chin. You did tell me about your dad and convo with your mum, it shows how strong he was to keep it for that long without giving up, and even stronger for not telling and trying to live a nicer life, you should admire that and think nothing but good which im sure you do. She shouldnt have been the person that "fixed" your heart because that would always only be temp, you can now move on from her completely and start fresh, a new chapter, the new coach! Make the changes you need to make and just take the time to realise what you are doing. Take it easy dude

I owe him more than he could know. Hes always been there to help me when Ive needed it.
Thanks Steve