So Alton towers was pretty damn good I must say. Blasted out the park in the first day after quickly getting up there. Got bumped to the nicer hotel for no extra cost. Me and pete spent the entire second day at the park in our onsies so as not to attract too much attention to Chloe and Danielle, hilarious. Winning every basketball related game they had there. Waterpark was awesome, mini golf was a good laugh (won it too). Non stop laughs courtesy of Pete. Quick drive back and a 13 hour sleep last night and feeling fresh. What a great few days away.

And when I got home last night I get told that my brother Simon is coming down on the weekend and is now gonna live here in Newquay. I cant believe it this is amazing, I havent seen him in about a year now and im going to see him nearly every day now. He was fed up living in Manchester with too many bad memories and wanted out. Even with Liam living here things have been much better at home, now Simons coming things are gonna get even better.

Going Alton towers tomorrow with Chloe Pete and Danielle. First chance this year of getting a small break from everything for a few days. Looking forward to it slightly

Time and basketball

Wish I played more basketball over easter, only played a couple of times over the holidays and got a few hours in today.

It's been my first love for so many years that I guess after all the events of this last year i've lost sight of it. I remember the days where I would wake up and get straight to it, id play at least 3 times a day almost everyday.

But now im older and busy I rarely get time to play and it shows. I cant play as much as I could a few years ago and my body is in poor shape and getting injured too much. Now my knees have gotten worn down over the years and i've torn my acl a little its getting to be quite a struggle. Im lucky if I can play more than twice a week now. I used to feel invincible like I could play non-stop, but now I feel quite mortal when I play after I ruined my ankle a few months back and it still causes me pain every now and then, then the knees just cant keep up, every morning I wake up limping waiting for them to get adjusted for the day.

Too many prior commitments have overtaken my time playing the sport I love, I miss the days where I just felt free to play wherever whenever nothing else mattered, id walk a mile to go play at my old school and play for hours. But now if im not spending time with Chloe im doing uni assignments or spending time with the family now Liam has moved in with us. Not that any of these things are bad, Chloe is amazing and I always enjoy spending time with her. Uni is a pain in the ass full stop because this second year has been so hard! but I have such a great group of people there that there's never a dull moment. Things at home are good now Liam's living here, its lowered the tension between me and mother now she has someone else to talk to. I wish I could talk to her more now Dad's gone but im just not a big talker it makes me feel uncomfortable, but shes happy so I cant complain.

After Uni is done for the year im taking a good part of the summer making sure im back on the court everyday getting back to the way I used to be. Otherwise ill probably end up losing my greatest pass time and my greatest passion that ive had for so long.

I am alone
Not just me, were alone.

Alone forever.

And whose at the end of that forever tunnel I run through,
Up the wallpaper with skyscrapers.

I'm thinking after all those beautiful dreams
This is one of those bad ones.

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