I hate my sleeping pattern...

Cant get to sleep until at least 2am every night
Im so tired...and its only midnight
But there are too many thoughts running through my head every night

Today was the last time I got to see Ashley before she leaves to start Uni
As usual I barely slept the night before
I was over thinking like I do every night
I really need to stop doing that because it gets me no where and it stops me sleeping

Im just glad I got to see her before she left

I showed her that I can be slightly vulnerable...for which I got the usual response of her calling me a woman

Shes called me it so many times that its practically a compliment (that should annoy her) 

Ive started doing her a video blog, which is much harder to do than typing one because im being put on the spot to say things and im abit of an idiot and as such find it hard to talk on the spot most of the time

Oh well im not the one watching the videos so im not really bothered, if they make her happy then ill do as many as I can (that should annoy her as well)

Shes definitely worth the effort (that one might really annoy her)

I am obviously feeling down because im not going to be seeing her often now, but im not gonna let it get me down for long because it just means that when I do see her that im gonna make sure that its meaningful.

Ive just done a couple of videos for her and im getting abit better at sitting there babbling about things, this is why I love her she gives me reasons to want to make use of all this time I should be sleeping but instead stay awake because im messed up like that.