Everyday

I wake up to the cold realization that your really gone

I'm never going to see you again

I re-live that entire year over in my mind every morning when I wake
I'm so full of anger, full of hate for the disease that takes so many unfairly
I just wish there was something I could have done, anything at all
But instead I was just in shock whenever I thought about it, id retreat

I hate myself for it, I should have been there more, to talk to you, to be with you
But I thought you'd beat it, that everything would be alright
I was just trying to stay positive about it all
And you would never give the impression that it was bothering you, because you were so full of life

Ive spent my whole life wanting to be like you, to be as good a person as you were
And now your gone im so confused, I just want to speak to you again so badly
Whenever anything was bothering me you were the first person id speak to about it
Because you had something to say about everything
Your advice always made me feel so confident, it always gave me hope

I need you in my life now more than ever
There are so many things that I want to talk to you about
So many things that I want to ask you
I need your advice, to feel hopeful again

And above all I wanted you to meet her

After you'd gone, I lost all hope, and all my confidence
You were the greatest thing in my life, what was I supposed to do now your gone

But then I met her, and she noticed me, made the effort to talk to me
I felt my confidence slowly coming back the more I spoke to her
Then as we began to meet in person and our connection grew
I felt that there was still hope after all

The best thing to happen in my life was meeting her
Im hoping now that shes realized just how much she means to me
How she gave me a reason to enjoy life again
I feel so alive when were together

I never thought that I would love someone who would love me in return

Until she came into my life