Slowly

Over the last few months I have slowly been getting my life back on track.

I've been taking time to slowly to let things fall into place, I have been spending my time talking more than I ever used to. Finding that the bonds with those closest to me are growing stronger each day.

My friends, just the other night I was sitting at home just watching time fly by when they all decided to show up at my house and we spent the night just having a good laugh about things. Something I was not expecting.

We sat around talking about our lives and all the good times that we've all had over the years and how much things have changed. Changed for the better.

Things at home are getting better, I get on alot better with my Mum now that we finally spoke about everything that happened this year.

I also get on with my brother alot better too, on the night we were at a party celebrating my Dads birthday he had been drinking and broke down into tears in front of me, saying how much he missed him. I just held him and told him how proud that Dad was seeing him grow up and start a family.

I obviously still find it hard to get used to life without him around. But at the same time I've begun my journey towards moving on from it.

I know that it is going to take time but at least now im on the right path.

Things at uni are going well, the second year is proving to be harder than the first but im ready for the tasks ahead. I know that I can work hard when it matters, I proved that last year by working twice as hard to do all my assignments after I had spent so much time off after he passed away. I passed the first year with a decent grade and know I can do more. I just have to concentrate on myself more.

This year has certainly been life changing. It has made me see that there is so much out there that are still unknown to me and im yet to experience.

But at the same time I know that its more important for me to honest myself, and to follow my own choices.